CarbAddict

I have been trying to add fiber to my diet but it never seems enough.  I have cut out sweet tea, coke, and MOST things bad for me.  Everynow and then I will have a yeast roll at work, but its not one of those situations where I eat four or five.  No just one.  But I also cant get into a habit of eating small meals or snacks, which I know doesn’t help because the less I eat the slower my metabolism gets.  I have been much more aware of good carbs and bad carbs but here is a question if anyone can answer me.  If I were to eat a jello snack pudding, with net carbs of 21 grams, and add benefiber, can this be justified?  I mean, I doubt I could subtract the fiber count from the original 21 grams, but can I still feel okay with it?  I just need to find a way to add more fiber.  I can’t get regular unless every three days is “regular”

Today I was looking at pictures from 4 years ago.  I have really just let myself go. Twentyfive pounds in four years.  What happened to me?  I am getting better with the carbs finally.  Today I had sweet tea by accident.  My boyfriend ordered while I was in restroom.  But I resisted the urge to suck the bottom out of the glass.  I have been doing alot better with my eating habits too.  Having to add alot of fiber to my diet.  I just cant get enough by eating.  I work at a place where I get free food and it is killing me to come up with foods I can eat at work.  Not to mention, I never really feel hungry.  That’s my biggest problem yet.  For four years I have conditioned myself to eat at 11p.m or after midnight so I am battling the urge to eat when my boyfriend does.  We both work in restaurants and sadly he doesn’t get off til after ten.  However, he is a guy and has only gained ten pounds since we have been together and his eating habits are worse than anyone could imagine.  A snack is ramen noddles and the main course is a large plate of white rice and chilli.  If I ate that at night, my fingers would be too big to type on this keyboard.  He is trying to eat healthier now with me so it is helping alot.  What sucks about today is that I weigh in on Mondays and that is the day I don’t stress over counting carbs as much.  I have made it down to 140 but by time Monday night gets here, I have added a pound.  Maybe I need more fiber.  Anyway.  Just rambling today. 

So, today I weighed in.  I lost one pound.  That’s it.  One pound.  I really thought that once I went back to work, it would just drop off.  But this weight is a true friend (J/K) cuz it is sticking with me.  I don’t really have a plan anymore.  I started out wanting to do the south beach but there is no way I can do it.  Carbs are too important to my brain I think.  I have done more research thanks to some response to my first blog and started paying more attention to the kind of carbs I am taking in as opposed to the amount. Don’t get me wrong, I am still watching them closesly but I just made a few changes.  How have I gone so long not realizing how bad bread and sweet tea were for me?  I mean yes I know they were bad to a degree but I never knew sugar made you retain water weight.  Now my big problem is recycling if you get my point.  Sometimes I get so caught up in counting carbs or what I have eaten that day, that I don’t want to eat more carbs so I don’t always get enough to go through me or something.   My friend told me to take benifiber to help out and I am tempted but since I cut out almost every drink but water and unsweet tea, I am thinking that would taste aweful in water. In the end I know it is my fault for not adding more exercise into the equations.  But starting tomorrow, I wanna start walking atleast 20 minutes.  I know its not alot, but I read someone’s blog where she cut out sugar for 21 days to make it a habit to be sugar free so my 21 days start tomorrow.  I want to be addicted to exercise and I hope it works. 

So, I have been on my low carb/no carb(lol) diet for five days now.  Had a real bad day yesterday but it was my little girls birthday so I wanted to have a piece of cake.  Instant regret by the way.  But did that stop me at lunch? No.  We were at a waterpark and as surprising as it sounds, they don’t have a low carb menu available.  Of course that doesn’t mean I couldn’t make an attempt.  So I ordered a chicken sandwich (was gonna leave off bun during consumption) and a water.  The girl who was in no hurry put fries on my tray.  Now, I could have said “hey, I didn’t order fries”  but that might have meant another ten minutes standing in line and I had already been in line for bout 20, no joking! So I said to my greedy little self “that is a sign that I should sit back and relax because its a birthday and family outing and we never get those” So I did just that.  Woke up this morning to put my uniform on and guess whose pants were tight? That’s right.  MINE!! C’mon, I didn’t even eat half of those fries. So is it in my head? Mean while my boyfriend of almost five years has everyday noted if I ate a single carb and laughed.  Is that support.  And how rude to eat a whole plate of white rice in front of me! He is always complaining saying he is getting fat and he wants to work out and diet even though he wears a 32 in pants.  I think he is just saying that because that seems to be what guys say to relive glory days of sports and youth.  Don’t take it the wrong way guys, I know not all of you say these things, but jock types that I know do.  I just feel that sometimes he doesn’t want me to loose weight or work out because it makes him feel better bout not working out or eating healthy.  Please don’t misunderstand.  I truly love him and he loves me, maybe I am just whining due to the guilt I am having from eating a few bad carbs today and wanna point the finger at him instead of me.  I am stronger than that and that will have to be another part of my goal, self accountability!

Today is my third day of attempting to cut back/cut out carbs.  I knew it was gonna be hard before I started because I love bread and sweet tea…I am from the south, its part of the food group! This is my first post.  I just joined today while in search of help for my weight.  I haven’t invited any friends yet but feel free to add me if you have any advice that will help me. I am so confused.  I get what they say bout good carbs/bad carbs but my mind stomach doesn’t.   I always prided myself on the fact that I never really had a sweet tooth.  I can’t remember the last time I bought ice cream for myself.  As it turns out, I was killing myself with bread and sweet tea.  I have never really liked protein rich foods.  I can eat chicken from time to time but I had rather have a turkey sub loaded with carbs.  I need someone to step in and say you can eat this but not that.  And if I am craving something, can I not have a sip of sprite or tea.  Can I not have one yeast roll? If anyone can help please do so.